when people read this i know people will definitely call me
absurd. for years i've been wondering what i really wanted in this world. and all this while i thought that i would love to be a
professional surgeon and that it will never change. but god showed me something that i never realized i want so badly. i changed my mind of becoming a pro surgeon when i saw someone dying in front of me. i realized on that very moment that live is in god's hands and i don't want to feel really bad when someone died because of me (it might be because of my carelessness during a surgery or something..).
since i've lost my only ambition, i pushed my mind to think of a new one. i can't live without an ambition. its the reason for me to keep on living.
i love to dream big. for months i've been thinking what i wanted to be. so i started thinking of what i like and what i wanted to do. so what is it that i really want? what is it that i really like?
the answer is:
Paris! oh yes! i love French language, French cuisine, French culture. anything French wow-ed me.
the next thing that came immediately in my mind was: i need to go to Paris!
ASAP!
and that was when i realized that i inherited the traveling hobby from my aunt-
Mak Uda. she is probably the most adventurous lady i've ever met. apart from that, i realized that i somehow inherited the passion to write story and journals from
my papa. and i am really really into
photography but my passion had to be on hold because i don't have my own camera. mobile camera? of course i have one. but the satisfaction is not the same as using the true photography camera.
when i put all of my thoughts together, i came up with:
a travel journalist.
does that rings you? well, it involves traveling, writing and
PHOTOGRAPHY..! yeay!
but i have other plans. my biggest dream is to
travel Europe.
i want to go to every single place that exist there, be it a museum or a flea market.
i want to experience the life there.
i want to meet the people there.
i want to learn their culture,
experience the different season there.
i want to taste fresh berries.
i want to see the different types of cheese that they have back there.
i want to go to the famous fashion stores there.
i want to taste each and every bit of europe.
and if possible i want to go straight to europe after finishing my high school. but i know that that was insanely absurd. i mean, i got
no money to start with. and my mama and papa would kill me if i do that. no parents would want to see their children living a hard life without proper and higher education. right mama? (i know my mama's going to read this)..
so, what should i do now?
can i fly straight to Europe after SPM, mama?
can i?
*batting eyelashes and pulling out an innocent face*
ooh,, for starters, why don't you buy me a digital camera mama? a cheap one will do. ooh, and maybe papa can repair my lappy? you know, to get me into writing and photography-ing. who knows when i became a pro photographer i got to shoot my sisters' and brothers' wedding. FOC! hehe.. such a naughty daughter i am! =)
well, it's up to Allah. if He says i'm going, then i'm definitely going. =)
{my new sunnies. bought it just for the hari raya! =)}
